Are you sad?

was the question I've been asked most often about what's happening at my soon to be ex-job. Deep down, it seems like I should be angry, but I'm not. For some strange reason there's this calm that's come over me. Is that bad? It isn't like I'm going to be broke anytime soon... there is a severance package that's fair. I don't know how to explain it.. I'm just.. calm.

I look forward to being able to sleep in for the first time in a long time, and not do much except work on my final cut pro skills.

The light is getting brighter at the end of the tunnel, and I'm not scared to walk into it.

Tick Tock.. Tick Tock..

the clock is ticking.. Things are winding down at work, and for the first time in quite a while I find myself on the outside looking in. I don't know if that's a good thing or not.

I'm sure that anyone that's been in a certain position for quite a while begins to think that they are "essential" and the company they work for couldn't survive without them. But the fact is that no one is indispensable, and life goes on. It's just that some people never see things that way, and bitterness sets in which sours their outlook on life. It's been a little disturbing that suddenly I'm not being asked anything about what I do, because everyones busy learning their new roles, so I'm just gliding along.. going unnoticed in the grand scheme of things, just keeping a seat warm until I don't have to go in anymore. Then, I'll be keeping my bed warm as I take some time off to consider my options.

I've started looking for something in my present career, but I may not stay in it. There are a lot of options I'd like to consider, and for the first time I have time on my side to take a step back and look at what the world has to offer.